So much happens in 10 years … but as I posted on facebook (copied from someone else): I can’t even remember what I did last Tuesday, but I remember so many, many details about Tuesday, September 11, 2001.
I can see it most obviously in my children: on September 11, 2001, Anna was just over 10 months old, refusing to crawl, but rolling from one corner of the room to the other at whirly-gig speed! We were already planning Andrew’s 3rd birthday coming up on 9/18. Today Anna is 10 years old – and we are planning Andrew’s 13th birthday! They don’t really remember 9/11 – but the day touched their lives as it began a war on terror that took their dad away from them for a year from 2003-04.
I see 10 years very much in my own face. I was a young mom in 2001 – with 2 miracle children I never dreamed I’d have!! Shortly after 9/11, Andrew and Anna both came down with fevers, and I went into full mommy-panic mode! Thankfully, we were staying with my parents while Dan was away at an Army school and we were in between duty assignments. I called my cousin’s husband who was a pediatrician for assurance and advice, and then I worked myself into a 2 day migraine that put me to bed! I think the stress of Dan being gone, my kids being sick, and the constant coverage of the post 9/11 events on the TV just did me in.
Today I’m grayer (although I try to keep that secret!) and the lines on my face have found new places to furrow … I have experienced – and survived – many things I never imagined I would in these last 10 years: a miscarriage in 2002, my husband’s year long deployment from 2003-2004, and a huge, daunting life transition from the military to the ministry … and now, surprisingly I am a mom of a baby again “in my old age”!
Of course, my husband’s life was personally touched by 9/11 when he was called up to support the War on Terror in February of 2003 in a Combat Support Hospital south of Baghdad, Iraq. He was among the first to go – and thankfully, he came home safe. Working in Iraq is what solidified his call to go into full-time ministry and serve God and people, not only as a Christian, but as his career. In that sense 9/11 changed our entire family.
Our smallest family member Miriam has no idea what this is all about … but we will tell her. No doubt, on the 20th anniversary of 9/11 in 2021, she will understand so much more about 9/11 means to our family and to America. Hopefully she will never have to go through something like this in her life time … but it doesn’t seem as if the world is getting any safer or better! The one truth she will know for sure is this: no matter how scary the world may seem sometimes, no matter how many “bad guys” are out there trying to spread hate and evil, and no matter how uncertain the future seems, GOD IS IN CONTROL!
When Dan first deployed to Iraq, someone told me I should claim Psalm 91 as my personal assurance to cling to when I was feeling scared or lonely. I read this Psalm almost daily during that year. And we can continue to cling to this promise in the days ahead:
I will set him on high, because he hath known my name.