Today I’m linking up with The Gypsy Mama for 5 Minute Friday again.
Today’s topic is RIGHT UP MY ALLEY: Ordinary! Just look at the title of my blog: I *am* an ORDINARY Hausfrau!! 😉
I have always been very ordinary. I was an ordinary student – not always straight A’s but not failing. I have ordinary talents, if any at all (does one call typing fast or organizing paperwork and doing accounting a “talent”!?). I can sing in a choir but I certainly don’t have a solo voice or even a duet or trio voice – I can’t carry a tune on my own. I have never been fawned over for being beautiful – I’m just pretty ordinary-looking: ordinary brown hair, ordinary blue eyes … I find when I have been somewhere in a crowd or obligatory meeting, people don’t usually remember my name or that I was even there (my dad forgot I drove 600 miles to come to his 70th birthday a few years ago!!).
I don’t make a splash; I don’t like attention. I am content to be ordinary.
I recently read a quote that said, “Not everyone can be a princess; someone needs to stand on the sidelines and clap.” That last part is me – I observe, watch, and quietly cheer. I have some friends who I admire with princess qualities and wonderful talents, but it just doesn’t feel right when I assert myself or pamper myself. It’s not in me. I am that “wind beneath the wings” person who prefers to see my friends achieve and excel. My husband is somewhat like that too – he’s a support person, a right-hand man … biblically speaking, I’d call him a true servant. In his case, he does it because he loves to help people; in my case, I am ordinary because I don’t want upheaval, attention, or to be a bother to anyone.
Being ordinary sounds pretty humble … but it does come with its problems. Now that I am 40 years old, I have dealt with a lot of issues dealing with my ordinary personality and lifestyle. Sometimes I resent being overlooked, even though I don’t want the spotlight – I just want acknowledgment! This means I sometimes have to step out of my comfort zone – and make my presence known by speaking up, doing something for someone that takes extra time and effort, or asking if I can help.
Another issue is that I used to feel (and sometimes still do) that God doesn’t really have a particular interest in me because He’s got so many “important” people to help. While – of course – I know He is a PERSONAL God (which He has proved to me over & over), I guess I even shy away from asking Him for help or things I really desire. I’ve become BOLDER in my faith as I’ve learned more about God’s character (after all, He said come BOLDLY to the throne of grace to obtain mercy! Hebrews 4:16) and seen Him work on my behalf. For years I couldn’t grasp why God would delight in ordinary me?! Even though I wasn’t a particularly “big” sinner (I haven’t murdered, I don’t steal, I can’t even begin to imagine committing adultery), I am full of “ordinary” sins (equally as sinful in God’s eyes!) like having a bad attitude, being critical or unthankful, harboring bitterness, or getting angry and jealous; why would He choose me or use me?
And yet, the God who made me loves me – ordinary as I am – and offers me an EXTRAORDINARY life full of His love and blessings and strength.