I knew this would happen … I was afraid it would … I just shouldda known …
I don’t want to be here in Missouri any more!! I want to move NOW … I can’t imagine the next 3 or 4 months here, in this house, without Daniel, with SO MUCH to do.
Today I told Daniel that I could just torch the house and collect the insurance (unless someone who reads my blog tells what I did!!). Then we could just live in his little apartment for the next few months and start over, start fresh, start somewhere new. I’m ready!
However, then I remembered a few things: how horridly I slept in that little 1 bedroom apartment, MiMi’s travel bed in our bedroom and her tossing and turning and sighing in her sleep … Drew and Annie-Belle making noise in the living room which I could hear through the paper thin walls. The security light that shines right outside the bedroom window, toned down just a little by a “black out” curtain.
And the most horrid thing that happened the night before we left Arkansas: the property manager knocked on our apartment door around 11 p.m., saying he’d had a call from the downstairs neighbors that we were making too much stomping noise! EEEK, apartment living … don’t think we can do it!! Not for long and not without getting kicked out!!! LOL
BUT then again, what can be worse than a copier/printer that eats all one’s hard-worked-on W2’s that one has prepared for the 20+ employees that one does the payroll for (that one being ME, tonight) … that alone has made me want to run away … No one report that to the IRS please (today was the deadline to give employees their W2s!) … hopefully the staff will be understanding that I need to track down about 25 more W2, form Bs ASAP. Good news is my church is considering hiring a payroll service to take care of all this stuff. Slowly, I can let go of this job … although, today WAS, after all, pay day, and it was nice to get my tiny paycheck because these days, every penny counts! Not sure if it is worth it … or not!
My house is a mess today … I have so much to catch up on … I need to get so much done … and starting that fire is sounding more appealing all the time!! 😉