Well, for those of you who don’t drink coffee, I’d offer you tea or hot chocolate!! ;)
It is Wednesday … my new “favorite day of the week”. Back when I didn’t have to work outside the home, my favorite day was actually Monday – the day everyone ELSE went back to work and school, and I got to start the day off slower but had some quiet time to plan my week in the calmer, more collected way that I seem to thrive in.
But alas, those days are over – and now that school has started and my work schedule has changed, quiet Mondays are a thing of the past. My pharmacy has opened a new branch in a little town about 12 miles from my house – and that is where I have to be Monday mornings by 8 a.m. now. While I like the quieter outpost location, it isn’t easy to get there ON TIME.
So, yeh, I work out there on Mondays all day (but get off at 3:30) … and Wednesdays from noon until 6 p.m. (closing) … and Fridays from 8 a.m. until noon. Otherwise, I work at the original pharmacy location or in my little office. So, needless to say, work has gotten a little BUSIER lately.
Oh … and OF COURSE, we are having our usual car problems again. This time it is our zippy little Saturn Vue. The transmission went out last week … and yesterday we found out that Saturns have a fancy transmission that can’t be re-built – they have to be replaced – to the tune of $3,600 to $4,200. Considering the vehicle has over 180,000 miles on it, the mechanic recommended we NOT invest more money into it (my son wishes he’d known that a few weeks ago before he installed a new stereo system in it!!).
So, it looks like we’ll be car shopping soon. It has been over 16 years since we bought a car (I bought the Vue brand new in July of 2003!). The other vehicles we have were either forced on us against *MY* will (Dan’s Buick that previously belonged to his grandmother) or the van which my Dad graciously gave us when we were in such terrible dire straits 2 years ago.
Of course, we’re looking at getting a used car for Drew to drive … and he’ll be helping pay for it as he now has a job and plans for this to be HIS car – hopefully to get him through college and maybe even beyond?!
And speaking of college … we are starting to fill out college applications!!! Given the circumstances of our vehicle situation now – our get-out-of-debt plan has gone from being a 5-year-plan to a 6-year-plan and now probably a 7-year plan … without leaving much leftover for us to help pay for tuition. :( BUT I think back and neither my husband nor I had much help from our parents to pay for college either … and we made it somehow. God provides.
So, yeh, things have been a little difficult lately again – playing the vehicle shuffle to get everyone to work and school and activities and church and appointments … but I’ve been trying to keep my chin up! God provides DAILY bread.
The last few days have been kind of bleak – but as a lady at work reminded me after hearing about our vehicle situation, “Any problem that MONEY can fix isn’t that much of a real problem.” (other than our problem is we have so little money to FIX the problems!!) – but what she meant, I think, was that a broken-down car is a temporary inconvenience. Getting the news that you have cancer or that a loved one was in a serious accident or has died is SO SO SO much worse.
So, I try to focus on the good – the happier days – the days we can go outside and have a picnic because the weather right now is just about PERFECT (the in-laws were here last weekend):
and I can be thankful for my health and my family (who are hiding behind a display of “bluebirds of happiness” at a local art colony):
That doesn’t mean I don’t waver between discouragement and frustration and anger sometimes … because obviously, I do!! In fact, the last 3 or 4 years have really just been one kind of horrific thing after another – mostly a lot of financial setbacks – and apparently this season of life is just going to be hard that way.
Another girl I work with asked me yesterday, “When was the last time you were happy?” … I’m not really sure what prompted that other than the fact that I’ve been working there for almost 1 year – and over and over and over, I’ve had bad news – mostly about vehicles – or while everyone is going to the beach or Disney World or whatever adventures, I’ve not made it further from Arkansas than a flight to Tennessee, which my parents actually paid for!! I mean, I’m BLESSED – but my life isn’t the typical American dream.
I felt a little bad because at first I answered, “Oh, about 10 or 12 year ago, when we were still in the Army.” But that was happiness based on enough money and time to travel and do just about anything we set our minds to.
MY HAPPINESS should NOT be based on money … like the older lady who’d said “problems money can solve aren’t really problems.”
And as a Christian, my joy is in the Lord. And so, I’m back to grasping on to that elusive joy … the one that doesn’t go away when circumstances hit hard. The one that keeps my mind focused on God’s goodness and provision. Yes, “life is hard” right now … and who knows, we may NEVER catch a break on this earth?! BUT eternity will be wonderful comparatively – and the things I do FOR eternity (the people who I invest in) are all that will last.